I think that I'm thinking too much about how much I thought about what I was thinking, and now I just feel silly. Kind of loopy, kind of like that first sentence. I think that I might have once more...made a fool of myself and spoke with out thinking first...wait I take that back...I thought so much that what I really wanted to say got lost.. and that's where I begin to feel foolish. All I really wanted to say was something simple. Something very simple and from the heart. All I really wanted to say is I'm trying. On so many levels I'm trying and that is what makes a change.This one is shining. Very very shining. Its love for me. True. just like the first time. just like it was....but new.